This morning, I left the house later than I usually do – a few minutes past six am, but it was alright because I was going to join the staff bus which doesn’t leave till half past six. It has been raining for a few days now so the roads were flooded and the weather, chilly. I left the house prepared – in my rubber shoes and my durable umbrella.
I thought I was only going to wait a few minutes, maximum of fifteen, I thought wrong. I watched people walk swiftly under the rain, some entering public buses en route their destinations, some got rides from individuals with private cars, some staff buses even. And here I was, standing in the rain.
As I stood there waiting, wondering if the bus had left and I had been a few minutes too late, I started to grumble in my spirit.
Where was this bus? What was keeping the driver? We were going to be late for work! I am standing in the rain!!!
I called someone who I knew would know the whereabouts of the bus, he allayed my fears about the bus leaving me. They hadn’t left the bus park yet. They would be leaving soon.
That kept me calm for a couple more minutes, but as the conductors of the public buses going my way kept calling passengers in, I started to get jittery all over again. Then I heard a still small voice in my spirit.
You should learn a lesson from this, you know?
Lesson? What lesson?
About patience. About waiting on God.
OK Holy Spirit, speak, I am listening.
When God gives you a word or a promise, it stirs up an expectation in you. You start out with a cheerful heart – rejoicing, believing, ready to receive. Then He makes you wait for it, and you start to falter, you start to doubt in your heart. You ask yourself “Has He forgotten?” “Was I imagining things when He said He would do it? “. Then He sends you a reminder through the Holy Spirit, that He hasn’t forgotten you, a mother can forget her suckling child, but not Him. It keeps you calm for a while. Then you get distracted by the voices around you- the people who look like they are doing better, the opportunities that will get you to the same destination but through a different route – and slowly you begin to lose focus. Well, DON’T. Fix your eyes on Him. He isn’t just interested in the destination, He is interested in your process and who you become. Though it tarry, wait for it, it shall surely come to pass.
For those few minutes, I felt time stop. My heart was lifted and my eyes were opened. A few minutes later, a colleague at work passed and saw me standing. “Why are you standing here?”, she said, “We’ve been sitting inside that building.”. All the while I had been getting cold, and anxious, while there was a warm place for me to stay.
Well, I am in the bus right now, it came eventually. Maybe later than I expected, but I think I am glad it did.
Be assured and understand that the trial and proving of your faith bring out endurance and steadfastness and patience. But let endurance and steadfastness and patience have full play and do a thorough work, so that you may be [people] perfectly and fully developed [with no defects], lacking in nothing.
James 1:3-4 AMPC